Choked on The Wonder Of It All

Pistachio cupcake sitting on a dish.

Here’s the candle.
Blow it out!
Make a wish!

You can Wish for fortune
Wish for fame
Wish for happiness
Peace, personal gain.
Wish for a beach-book-blanket warm vacation .
A trip to some exotic destination.
Wish for a giant party-gala-ball.
Wish for a way 
to get away 
from it all.

But I don’t want to get away from this. 

I want to get closer, yes, that is my wish.

Closer to it all 
To feel it all
To see it all 
To smell it all 
And taste it all 
To hear it all 
And touch it all 
To Live it all,
Yes, Do it all 
Enjoy it all 
Imagine it all
Question it all 
So I can learn it all
And become it all.

I don’t want to wish it all away.
I don’t need an extra long vacation.

Every single day is my birthday.
Every single breath, a meditation.

Sure, I could wish for sunshine and no rain,
I could wish for perfect health, no pain, 
I could wish for comfort ease and grace,
A fat wallet, skinny ass, smooth face.

I could wish for so many other things, 
But what I want is 
all that this life brings. 

I want to get closer to it all
To feel it all
To see it all 
To smell it all 
And taste it all 
To hear it all 
And touch it all 
To live it all
Yes, Do it all 
Enjoy it all 
Imagine it all
Question it all 
So I can learn it all
And become it all.

The hard the soft
the good the bad the grind, 
The crazy busy stress, the peace of mind, 

The calm and cool of surprisingly easy days, 
The stupid shit that always seems to get in the way,
the beautiful the ugly the sweet the sour,
the minutes as they fly, the endless hour.

I want to feel it all
as it comes my way
Living moment to moment,
day to day.

Just a simple series of choices in my head,
That I’ll make over and over again until I’m dead.

And now, I have a choice,
To make a wish.
I’m wishing for another day of this. 

All of this. 
That’s all.
I wish to get closer
to it all.

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The earworm for this post is  Flickering Wall. Have a listen.

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